Today’s lectionary reading brings us the story of Thomas after Jesus’ crucifiction and burial (John 20: 19-31). For most of us, it’s a well-known story.
Jesus comes to the disciples who are meeting and praying together in hiding, but Thomas is absent this day. When he returns, they tell him that Jesus has risen and visited, but he doubts.
“Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands and put my finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will not believe.” (John 20:25)
And yet, when Jesus returns to visit a week later, Thomas is there and witnesses for himself that Jesus has indeed risen.
“Put your finger here and see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it in my side. Do not doubt but believe.” (John 20: 27)
So, what would it take for your faith to be challenged and strengthened?
What personal experience could you have that would confirm to you that God’s power in your life is real?
Peter stumbled and fell into faith
Perhaps an easier example for us to relate to is Peter, the rock on which Jesus said the church would be built. We see many instances where Peter shows a great understanding of Christ, only to overshadow it with his doubting, hesitance, and failure of faith.
Peter was possibly the only one to see Jesus walking on water, yet this same Peter was hot-tempered and rebuked the children that wanted to come to Jesus.
He’s passionate and impetuous: Peter was the first to say that he would accompany Jesus in prison and death, but at the moment of truth, denied that he even knew him.
This very same Peter was told off three times for falling asleep while accompanying Jesus in the garden for prayer.
From euphoria to failure
Peter gets swept up in the euphoria of Jesus’s power and miracles.
I want that!
But he crumbles under persecution.
He got it – Jesus was the messiah.
And he lost it – I’m too scared to follow this road of faith.
Many of us, like Peter, have denied that we knew Jesus: with our words, or with our actions, or our priorities.
Perhaps you’ve lost faith, because of fear – just like Peter.
Nonetheless, Peter still becomes the pillar of the early church, an example for others to follow.
Peter is the first to run to the empty tomb. He is also the first to jump out of the boat and swim to the shore to see Jesus after the resurrection.
In order to counter Peter’s denial of Christ three times before the crucifixion, we see Jesus ask Peter three times “Do you love me?”. Having failed three times, it’s important for Peter to confirm three times that he has overcome this failure in faith and believes.
But his journey was plagued by missteps and mistakes.
Do your actions speak of faith or doubt?
Thomas doubts strengthen his faith
It’s easy to see how Peter’s mistakes turn into strength.
But Thomas has a different road of challenges before him. They are more subtle, but equally strong.
And these are the mental doubts and stumbling blocks we face.
When we lose a loved one, or don’t get that dream job, it’s easy to fall into the mental loop of doubt and asking “Why?”
People around us are quick to give us empty platitudes:
- “Everything happens for a reason…”
- “God won’t give you more than you can handle…”
- “God has a wonderful plan for your life…”
And for Thomas, that challenge was seeing the man and friend that he believed in killed to satisfy the bloodthirst of the mobs and political powerplays.
The monkey mind: making you second-guess yourself
I’m sure he had millions of thoughts running through his head:
- We did so much for the sick, the needy and the masses, but they turned their backs on Jesus.
- Everyone listened to Jesus’ teachings, but is this the end of our journey?
- Jesus promised us the kingdom of heaven, but now all we have is death and despair.
And when the disciples tell him that they’ve seen a resurrected Jesus, Thomas doesn’t jump with joy and faith.
He’s cynical. He’s rational and thoughtful, not easily swayed by a cheerful friend.
He no doubt has a million thoughts running through his head as he tries to make sense of his experiences of the past three years.
Show me the money
Most of us have heard someone say “Show me the money.”
I don’t want any of your stories: I want to see the evidence. Don’t talk about the value you bring to the table, show me the value and benefits.
And for Thomas, it wasn’t enough that others had experienced seeing Jesus. He needed to experience this for himself.
When Jesus shows up, he doesn’t lecture Thomas. We might judge Thomas and read judgment into Jesus’ words to him, but does Jesus actually judge him?
Instead, Jesus says:
“Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Do not doubt but believe.” (v. 27)
Thomas said: “Show me the money!” and Jesus’ response is “Here’s the cold, hard cash.” Stop doubting. Here you go.
His evidence is the wounds and scars, yet he overcame this.
The challenge to overcome
For most of us, we find it easier to trust someone that has the battle scars than someone finely dressed, that hasn’t experienced life’s hard knocks.
Want to know why Dr. Joe Dispenza is so popular? It’s not just what he’s teaching, but rather that he first had to get himself out of his semi-paralysed state and back on his feet again! Six of his vertebrae has compound fractures. He risked being a quadriplegic. But he overcame this challenge.
We trust his scars and his journey. He walked the talk. Those scars tell a story of faith and healing.
Similarly, people are willing to follow the teachings of Louise Hay who healed herself from cervical cancer through forgiveness and letting go.
Because, for many of us, seeing is believing.
We need to see the scars and wounds of others to believe that it’s possible for us to heal and get back on our feet. M
Much like Thomas, we say when I see the nail marks in his hands and the wound in his side, then I’ll believe that healing is possible.
We need these live examples to open our eyes to the possibilities of what could be.
What challenge are you facing?
So today, I ask:
What challenge are you facing and what example do you need to strengthen your faith?
Perhaps you’ve lost your business and are struggling with financial difficulties:
- Job had everything – the richest man, a wonderful family with children and grandchildren, and a fantastic reputation – only to have it all disappear in a moment. Can you find inspiration in Job for seeing is believing?
- David is another great example – reduced to living in caves, running and hiding despite having been anointed to be the new king.
If you’re looking for modern examples, there are many like J.K. Rowling who went from a broke mother to becoming a billionaire through her creative efforts in writing. Even Richard Branson, the owner of Virgin, had a rought start to life.
For others, it’s getting through betrayal.
Wasn’t Jesus betrayed? And David, by his son Absalom? Or Joseph who was sold into slavery by his brothers.
Perhaps the challenge to your faith is sickness.
And we have many examples of healing:
- Natural healing – you break a bone, the doctor sets it back in place and immobilises it, and your body takes care of the rest! The doctor only has to make sure it’s aligned, so that when healing takes place, it’s all in the right place.
- Sometimes, the miracle we need comes in the form of a doctor and medicine! But isn’t that still healing. The knowledge and how to help the body to overcome sickness and injury pave the road to recovery.
- Most of us, of course, just want the miracle healing. The instant, no rational explanation, kind of healing. Of course there are examples of this – in life and in the Bible. But this isn’t the most common type.
- We also have examples of miraculous healing over time – like Dr. Joe Dispenza and Louise Hay that weren’t healed in a day, but rather healed little by little. How many of us are willing to hold our faith, day by day, for this healing?
- And sometimes, the healing that happens is in the heart – with acceptance for what is, forgiveness and letting go of resentment. Perhaps there is no physical manifestation, but what gets healed is relationships and we let go of bitterness. Isn’t this also a miracle?
What scars and wounds do you need to see, like Thomas, in order to restore your faith?
Do not doubt, but believe.
John 20: 27
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